I can't say I'm sad to see you go, you brought me some happy moments but you also brought me some of the darkest days of my entire life. We rang in 2014 with a ONE year old! Kyland and I decided we were going to try for another babe. 12 days into January we had a FOUR year old. Life was amazing we were healthy and extremely blessed and happy. Next came February I started feeling the most tired I had ever been in my life and I was nauseous every second of the day. You know what that meant. Yes, I was pregnant with our 4th sweet precious baby. I was so excited I love being a mommy and there was nothing more I wanted than a sweet baby. Then march 2014 came. March 11th was the day we found out it just wasn't time for our sweet baby to continue its journey to earth. While I still don't understand why it had to happen this way, I know that my Heavenly Father has a plan for me and I have grown so much closer to him through this enormous trial I have had to face. It's crazy how one family can have the worst month of their life, meanwhile another family had the best month. Heavenly Father brought our sweet nephew kason to us the next week and I was able to forget and just be happy while holding that sweet boy. 2014 brought 5 years of marriage to Kyland and I. It really doesn't seem like 5 years somedays it seems like 50 ;) In May I had to get my bottom wisdom teeth out and got dry sockets that was awesome...(insert sarcasm) & Kyland turned 25. June was a month of birthday lily papa blake and Ryan all had a birthday. July we ventured to panguitch utah for the 4th of July & our sweet ruby roobs turned 3!! August was my birthday month I am now a quarter of a century & got to celebrate my dad took me to my 2nd favorite place I'm the world Newport beach California. Sometimes you just need to get out of town and that really lifted my spirits. Allyson was in her 2nd primary program. October was an odd month I LOVE October but this year just wasn't feeling it completely. The rest of 2014 really just flew by with holidays and our baby girl turning TWO. Everyday of 2014 I had to make a conscious effort to make it a good day, which is something I've never had to do before. I'm usually a glass half full gal but this year wasn't my year. You win some and you lose some and although this wasn't a year I would want to relive I'm still so blessed. My husband and I are healthy. My three daughters are the most beautiful sassy stubborn people on this planet and I wouldn't changed them at all. 2014 you taught me that when life pushes you down, sometimes it takes you a little to get back up, but you can always get back up and try again. Im not sad to see you go but I know you taught me many things
Xoxo- ericka
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